Okay seriously

hey I’m back, I’ve been so busy with uni I haven’t had the chance to document everything, but I have my goal weight, and I am completely ready to get there. I binged last night and this morning (2 brownie’s and a chocolate egg) :”(. But that’s okay because I’m going to lose all this weight all 5kgs of it. today I will stick to only 400 calories because I’m going to follow the skinny girl diet. so the chocolate I had this morning was probably about 150 calories. and for lunch I will have a long black (only 2 calories!!!)  and then just have water, then a caffeine pill and go to the gym - burn 500 calories. then for dinner I’ll have radish and apple salad.. ( 1 cup mescalin salad, 2 radish, 1/2 apple) with a tea spoon on vinegar dressing, and then tea until bed time :) .

I can do this. I’m feeling motivated :) finally

This morning I had Turkish bread (200) and chocolate (75).

I’m going out for breakfast/morning tea with some friends and will probably get a coffee (250)

I need to buy some chewing gum

tomorrow I will not eat anything but water and chewing gum

Just imagine what it would be like to wake up in the morning, perfectly empty, resting your hands on your stomach, which is caving in, tracing the outline of your hipbones, your ribs, your collarbones. The soft autumn light shining through the window, you stand up, and you feel a bit lightheaded - but that’s ok. You make yourself some fresh coffee, black, no milk, no sugar. You curl up with the news, a good book, or the laptop, and sip your hot coffee, slowly waking up. You take a hot shower, and you are not disgusted by what you see. You style your hair, moisturise, the whole lot, put on cute underwear, do your make up, grab cute, tiny clothing and don’t worry about “looking bad” because you will look fantastic, even if you wear a shapeless jumper. Just imagine how fantastic that would be, how liberating. There is only one thing you need to do: don’t eat that.

I just binged!!!

ahhhh :( I had three squares of banana and chocolate gluten free brownies :((( thats like 150 cals!!!!!!!!!! FUAAAARCKKKK

Sunday

I woke up and used three eggs to make scrambled eggs, I had some green and mint tea and then a slice of Turkish bread. Total calories consumed… 350 cals

Today I will not eat lunch, instead I will paint, watch Billy Elliot, exercise (weights and crunches) and I will look up recipes for making dinner tonight. If I feel my self starting to cave in I will drink tea and chew gum.

For dinner tonight I will have salad and then walk to the gym at 8 for a two hour work out session where I will burn 700 calories.

Current weight : 52.9kg